69/365 The Man Cave
She has no idea why I come down here
Or what
it is that I do
For
hours.
I don't
suppose I expect her to.
It is the
man cave, after all,
and
according to Dr. John Gray,
she and I
are from different planets.
He says I
am here to process stress
by not
actually dealing with the issue.
By
letting the issue rest, rather than stewing and talking,
I work
through it and deal.
To
her,
I am
avoiding the problem,
and
what's worse,
I am
loafing.
I've got
the television on,
the
computer overclocked,
the fire
blazing,
and a
cold beverage gathering beads of condensation
while I
shuffle through the music of my formative years
lean back
in the comfy chair, put my feet up
and
remember days that will not happen again.
Some
days, I play a video game
with
far-away people I have never met
rather
than interact with those creaking the floorboards directly above me.
To her,
this is a crime.
To me, it
is blissful solitude.
She wants
to talk
She needs
to talk.
There are
things happening
There is
stress building
and according
to her
There is
no other way to relieve her agitated state
than to
sit with her
with the
television off
and make
eye contact
and
listen
and be
sure to remember what she says.
She can
always tell when "uh-huh" means I am wishing I was elsewhere.
That's
how they do this on Venus
They want
to talk
but do
not want an answer.
Solutions
are of no use there.
I know,
it's ridiculous
They need
you to listen to them tell about the problem
and all
of the issues surrounding the problem
and how
the issues surrounding the problem make them feel
and how
feeling that way about the issues surrounding the problem
has
affected their level of contentment in such a way.
But they
do not want to solve the problem.
And in
particular they do not want you to
solve the problem,
the one
they just made you sit and focus and listen to
and not
say "uh-huh" unless you really mean it.
They
don't need to actually get to a solution.
They just
need to very clearly identify the need for one
and maybe
cry a little or something
and then,
I don't
know,
I guess
they're just good.
Or at
least better enough that they don't need you as urgently.
I'll
never really get it.
It's like
calling the auto mechanic and spending an hour
telling
them how your car is this noisy jalopy
that is
one backfire away from falling to pieces in the middle of the interstate at
rush hour
and then just
continuing to drive it around,
never
having had the intention of asking the man to repair it.
This, she
seems to understand perfectly.
And
yet,
she does
not understand why I would prefer to sit in a comfy chair
eating
junk food and drinking an ice cold beverage
with all
of the lights out
except
for the glow of the fire
and Mystery
Science Theater on the television,
socially
networking on one computer
while killing
the bad guys on the other,
pausing
every so often to scratch a line onto the waiting page of a poetry journal
left
agape on the desktop.
She
thinks I am avoiding her
as though
I plan to stay down here forever
as though
she really, actually wants to hear about the struggles of my day
as though
she is ready with a quick fix solution to the smallest of my everyday
annoyances
that I
have not already considered
as though
my sitting in the comfy chair should be taken personally by her
that it
has any deeper meaning than,
"I
just want to go do this mindless thing for an hour"
Or six
hours.
I will
emerge peaceful
It will
help me to function after
to listen
without distraction
to love
her better and more
She
doesn't have to understand the magic of the man cave
just the
function
the need
for diversion, escape and solitude
and trust
that it will all be for the best.
They may
not do this where she comes from,
but this,
this is
something I need.
This is just
the Martian way
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