1.5/30 Dredged Up Melody (Sestina)
Sestina for a Dredged up Melody
I came down here fully intent
on purging one more storage box
of all its old junk and failed
again.
This worn cassette, the
"Eros/Pathos Mix"
Someone made just for me,
saying, "Listen,
I love you..."
I am vague on the context.
And it's all about context
Not merely content. Mix tapes
declare intent,
but you must know how to listen
unpack them like dream
meanings, like Pandora's box
Mix tapes are made when our own
words are too simple, a mix
of poor diction and things we
can never take back again.
I was always taking her back,
again.
That was surely the context.
We were an unsustainable mix
of selfless friendship and
narcissistic intent.
More pathos than eros, the
cassette box
title spoke wisdom in volumes.
Our denial did not listen.
Side A, Side B. I am tempted to
listen
unearth that yellow Walkman
again
dust off the old boom box
hear the wrong kind of love,
out of context.
I came down here to clean
house. Never intent
on stirring pots. Oil and water
still will not mix.
I remember these songs, a mix
of college bands we'd listen
to only on road trips, intent
on enjoying ourselves, always
falling out again
just when things got good. Same
issue, different context.
Rats in a labyrinth, we were
never leaving the box.
I can't sort through this box.
Trash, treasure, and sentiment:
Good mix
tapes are scaffolded
architecture. Same junk, same boxes, new context
for souvenirs of a self I do
not miss. I can not listen
to nostalgia pangs; vowed never
to heed again
that atonement and endearment
she recorded with structured intent.
I'd hear overtone context, read
lines outside the box.
I would know their intent. She
crafts a good mix
tape. I can never listen to those
songs again.
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