January 12, 1999


Doubt gets big

Unsteady, shaking form the ear on down.
She opens wide the door for escape
With uncertainty and fear.

I know better. I did this to myself.
The pain of knowing equals the joy of doing
without knocking of the knees.

Opportunity slammed in the face of God,
I choose the brightest star to follow
While ignoring the sun completely.

She asks all the right questions.
From guilt to truth and back again,
I spin my words to taste.

Plans ignored, rejected, and grabbed at,
My eardrums melt with deceit and joy.
When even the truth seems doubtful

Facts spinning off into the distance,
Emotions are played on and half-conquered,
Leaving the rest to senseless worry.